tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-977195274999180297.post7893642272043232665..comments2023-05-05T02:55:31.459-07:00Comments on The Girl Who Lived: Down the Rabbit HoleKatehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05813577761881391935noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-977195274999180297.post-6290135054956261202012-07-07T17:44:28.443-07:002012-07-07T17:44:28.443-07:00Rick James likes ME! He really, really likes me!
...Rick James likes ME! He really, really likes me!<br /><br />Yeah, music was ruined for a long time, but you will be happy to know that being married to a professional musician has given it back to me. We play guitar together and have sing-alongs, and while there is a lingering sense of anxiety around it, it's gone back to being fun again.<br /><br />You should hear our rendition of "Rubber Duckie," that great Sesame Street classic from years gone by. We kill it. Our daughters are in awe of our talent.<br /><br />I love the way you always get right to the heart of what I'm trying to say. The weird stigma of talking about drugs in anything other than hushed, horrified tones. The ugly manipulation of conditional love. The question you pose is exactly the question I asked myself over and over when I was with T.<br /><br />Even then, on some level, I knew that if you're asking yourself that question, the answer doesn't really matter. No matter what it is, it's never going to be what you truly need. If my story can keep another woman from deluding herself as long as I did, than my work here is done.<br /><br />And as for opting for something better, boy, did I ever! An improvement in every category, even down to the guitar skills. ;><br /><br />I do so love the boys in the band...KateTheGirlWhoLivednoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-977195274999180297.post-43432512604760869962012-07-01T07:34:32.760-07:002012-07-01T07:34:32.760-07:00Wow. This is *so* articulate and so interesting. ...Wow. This is *so* articulate and so interesting. One of the things we're not supposed to talk about in the U.S. is that there are nuances to the reasons that people do drugs. The catechism here is that people do drugs due to personal weakness, and we're certainly not allowed to point out that drugs are "awesome." So the fact that you've done so is powerful.<br /><br />Also, you can write music! How amazing is that? No wonder boys in bands are attracted to you. That's right, it's like "Super Freak," only instead of you liking Rick James, Rick James likes *you.* I'm sorry writing music feels ruined for you. I can't help but think maybe it's something you could get back. If pairing it with unpleasant stimuli ruined it, maybe pairing it with enjoyable stimuli could make it fun again.<br /><br />I could just kick T for only being willing to say he loved you when high. Oh, yes. Conditional love, with its smallness and meanness and its if/then subroutines. That is a familiar thing. And then the question becomes, "Does the person only love you when high, or does he only choose to express it when high?" Either way, good for you for opting for something better in the long run. Mirithnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-977195274999180297.post-57689968271542530262012-06-30T19:01:52.891-07:002012-06-30T19:01:52.891-07:00Girl, as always powerful stuff here. And as always...Girl, as always powerful stuff here. And as always I resonate, which we can talk about more offline. I love your naked truth telling and how your humor shines thru - juice and protein drinks! Love it. Sending hugs.Julie A. Levin, MFThttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08350580158882123059noreply@blogger.com